This is another of a surprisingly large and coherent body of verses that are organized around the idea that loss and despair should be seen as a twisted sort of triumph. The underlying notion is that one should never be indebted, or borrow things, or humiliate onself before a giver or lender. Rather than that, one should stick with what one already has, and stubbornly insist on preferring it-- so that a despair that is one's own is better than a derivative success acquired through self-abasement before 'Effectiveness'. For more on this line of thought, see 9,1 . But then, this all sounds remarkably like a rationalization. What it really amounts to, after all, is a kind of sour-grapes admission of eternal defeat and despair, and the impossibility of changing them. The use of with its wide range of meanings, both active and passive, both grim ('swallowing, putting up with') and favorable ('agreeable, pleasant'), encourages us to reflect on such possibilities (see the definition above). Ultimately, the lover no doubt means it both ways at once. It's terrible to have to keep 'swallowing' one's suffering-- there's no getting around it. Yet the lover's unshakable stubbornness and determination are also, as always, sources of pride. He alone can mediate between those two wild abstractions, 'Grief of Eternal Hopelessness' (or 'Eternal Grief of Hopelessness', if we read one slightly differently) on the one hand, and 'Effectiveness' on the other. Isn't that a more thrilling and lofty concern than mere anxiety over, say, how to pay the rent? (After all, as we saw so clearly in 20,7 , there are no good alternatives-- the only choice is 'grief of passion' versus 'grief of everydayness/livelihood'.) graphics/noaccess.jpg