Verse 5after 1816athii sahii


G11

In this meter the first long syllable may be replaced by a short; and the next-to-last long syllable may be replaced by two shorts.


1 a
let it be only/emphatically from one's own existence, whatever it might be
1 b
it would be only/emphatically from one's own existence, whatever it would be
2
if not awareness, then heedlessness-- so be it

References
Arshi, Imtiyaz Ali Ghazal# 182
Raza, Kalidas Gupta 298-99
Nuskhah-e-Hamidiyah 243
Hamid Ali Khan Open Image

For discussion of the versatile idiomatic expression , see 148,1 . This is another of Ghalib's group of verses that advocate radical autonomy and urge one not to be beholden to anybody for anything. Even something inferior, if it's authentically one's own, is more desirable than something superior that is derivative and obtained from others. Or, on the second reading (1b), one's own inner states are the only ones that are even available at all, and the question of obtaining awareness from any external source doesn't even arise. The commentators, following Nazm, generally give the verse a mystical turn: God is to be found through knowing oneself, not through knowing external things. The hadith referred to by Nazm is widely known, though apparently not well-documented in the authoritative collections; sometimes it is attributed to Hazrat Ali. (I'm grateful to the members of the Urdulist for sharing their knowledge on these points.) Still, nothing in the verse itself pushes us in a mystical direction. And in fact the use of 'heedlessness' as an alternative to 'awareness' works against a mystical reading, since 'heedlessness' can hardly be considered a recommended means for acquiring mystical knowledge. To me the verse looks more like a stubborn assertion of individualism, a nail-your-flag-to-the-mast defiance. I'd compare it to the similar, defiantly rakish 9,4 , which also, as it happens, uses . Also, compare this very similar, very Ghalibian-sounding verse of Mir 's: M 1768,6 . graphics/independence.jpg