Verse 7x1821aaaashnaa
G1
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through self-conceit, we remained unacquainted with each other
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my forlornness-- a partner; your mirror-- a friend
'Doggedness in one's own opinion; self-sufficiency; self-conceit; self-indulgence'.
'Unacquainted; unknown; friendless; — a stranger'.
'Forlorn state, friendlessness, destitution'.
'Sharer, participator, partaker (with); a partner, co-partner, an associate, a colleague, comrade, ally, a confederate, an accomplice, accessory; a member (of a community); a friend'.
'Acquaintance; friend; associate; intimate friend, familiar; lover, sweetheart; paramour; mistress, concubine; --adj. Acquainted (with, - ), knowing, known; attached (to), fond (of)'.
| References | |
|---|---|
| Arshi, Imtiyaz Ali | Ghazal# 21 |
| Raza, Kalidas Gupta | 324 |
| Nuskhah-e-Hamidiyah | 66-67 |
| Asi, Abdul Bari | 68 |
| Gyan Chand | 103-105 |
| Hamid Ali Khan | Open Image |
We both, because of self-conceit, were not able to become friends with each other. The sharer in my condition remained forlornness, because I remained self-conceited; and you remained ready to die for the mirror, because you remained self-regarding. The gist is that self-regard created this separation.
== Asi, p. 68
Within me, within you, friendship was not able to exist. You remained absorbed in the mirror, and I always lamented my forlornness. You had the arrogance of beauty, and I had a self-centered view. Neither did you take a step in my direction, nor did I, toward you. Both mutually remained non-friends.
== Zamin, p. 65
We two remained lost in our individual beings, thus we could not become familiar with each other. I had only forlornness. The meaning of forlornness is not to belong to anyone else. When there won't be any other sympathizer, then one's whole attention will remain fixed on his own individual being. You always remained absorbed in mirror-gazing, and this is exactly self-regard. In this way we both remained far from each other.
== Gyan Chand, pp.103-04
For background see S. R. Faruqi's choices . For more on Ghalib's unpublished verses, see the discussion in 4,8x .
This was the original opening-verse of the ghazal, though it was not selected for publication in the divan .
The speaker's 'partner, ally, confederate' was 'forlornness'-- or more piquantly, his 'friend' was 'friendlessness'. (See the definitions above.) What does it mean to have 'friendlessness' as one's (only) friend? But then, what does it mean for one's (only?) 'friend' to be a polished metal object like a mirror? Is the beloved really that much better off than the lover? She's as fetishistically absorbed in her beauty, as he is in his misery.
The first line diagnoses them both as self-absorbed and solipsistic. Is the lover as proud of his suffering, as the beloved is of her beauty? Does his cult of suffering prevent him from seeing her, as surely as her absorption in the mirror prevents her from seeing him? The lover seems to embrace his own lover-like sufferings, to the point of (culpable?) self-regard or self-conceit.
But of course, he's located all this in the past, so perhaps he's now seen the error of his ways. And he's explaining to her the error of her ways, too. (But is she really listening?)
Compare this verse with its published cousin 42,5 , and with its other unpublished cousin 42,11x .
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